Songs I heard in my dream

HOW TO ANSWER A JEALOUS LOVER

He coulda been

A cheater or a liar or a killer or a coward,

Well I don’t know

All I know

Is that he’s gone

He coulda been weak

He coulda been small

He coulda been dumb

He coulda been it all

Well I don’t know

All I know

Is that he’s gone

AMERICANA:

Give me miles and miles

Of country livin

And city slickin

And may your days be long

And give me sweet love

And give me freedom

And help me sing this song

Promise me

We won’t be like those idiots on TV

Who let a million misunderstandings come between

What we say and what we really mean

After the Fear

Find me at the end of all my love

When it runs out

When I give up

When I say that I might hate you and you’re never good enough

Find me at the end of all my care

When I feel no empathy

When I have no hope to spare

Tell me I’m the monster that you love

Tell me I’m your paradox

Tell me I’m your dove

Exposure Response Prevention

Tell me you’ve already

Abandoned me in your heart

And I’ll tell you that I never

Really loved you from the start

Swimming Lessons

Tidal waves

Rushing in

I am learning how to swim

The undertow

Pulls me down

I am learning how to drown

Breath it in

Breath it out

I keep pushing toward the surface

Somehow

But it seems impossible

Is it possible?

I have no doubt

Art Museums

I stepped into another world

I dreamed of madness

I found I was not quite alone

In this vibrant state of abandon

On Landing

Please don’t pull me in

I’m tired

So tired

Of looking for a place to land

And if I stay here I may never,

Never want to fly again

A Cold Night

I watched the leaves

Shaking in the wind

Clinging tightly to thin limbs

And what I wanted to say is

“Sometimes I feel just like them”

But it’s my character flaw,

A safety mechanism

I keep things in

–

I watched the delicate leaves

Trembling in the careless breeze

Clinging fast to stronger trees

And what I wanted to say is

“Please be careful with me”

But it’s a hard habit to break

And it’s an old crutch

I never say what I’m thinking

And I always think too much

Since

Since the first moment that I met you

I’ve been crying

And it doesn’t seem right

But I don’t know why

I feel just like a child sometimes

And you make me want to be

My softest side

To lay all my weapons down

And from the moment I first met you

I knew

My heart was giving out

I just wanted you to hold me

I feel so tired now

Never Say Forever

Don’t bend under

The weight of

The heaviness

Your steps will grow lighter

I know how it is

And I see a flock of birds

Have landed in the garden

In just a moment

They will be gone again

And this is how it is

With feelings

I won’t try to keep them in cages

Though I may admire them

Or even attempt to paint them

In vibrant colors

And I could write you secret letters

And bury them in the soil of

This care that never had a chance

To grow into a lasting love

But nothing lasts forever

So I release –

Now you be happy

And I’ll be free